Sorry to be a downer, but I'm just exhausted tonight and have nothing really substantial to write. Normally this is a day I wouldn't write anything, but since I committed to writing a post every day this month, I thought I'd better follow through. Plus, I was thinking about the blogs that resonate with me the most, and they're usually the ones that share the ups... and the downs too. I appreciate optimism, and those kind of posts inspire me, but I feel most connected with women who write about the challenges and low points of motherhood also. I think there's a tendency out there in the blogging world (especially among us mormon moms) to hide behind this facade that life is just perfect for us ALL the time. And yes, we have much to be happy about. But sometimes, life is really hard. I'm just feeling overwhelmed and stressed out tonight. I'm leaving at 5:15 tomorrow morning to pick up the young women and take them rock climbing. And I still have tons to do to get ready... but I have zero energy left to GIVE ANY MORE tonight.
My biggest goal today was to get the house under control again. This is a daily battle. So I've been working most of the day trying to keep this home clean. I swept, mopped, organized, cleaned, vacuumed, etc... and I just looked downstairs, and it all looks exactly like it did this morning. It looks like it wasn't even touched!! Frankly, homemaking can be downright exhausting and feel so unfulfilling sometimes.
I'm also stressed out over a paticular child who I don't know what to do with. He is the sweetest and most tenderhearted kid. But when he misbehaves, the time-out is a completely ineffective discipline technique for him. And positive reinforcement doesn't work either. For my degree in Social Sciences, I studied child development, and took a few family studies classes, and this was definitely not in the text book, haha! I'm completely clueless as to how to handle him. The textbooks and the "Super Nanny" make parenting look so easy. It's just tough because it seems that what works with one kid, doesn't work with the next! Ugh.
It was just one of those days. Oh well. I just read over this post, and I realized that if this is all I have to complain about, my life is pretty darn good. But seriously, life and motherhood is just really hard sometimes.